Hi. My name is Emily and I am the creator/owner of this cute little candle biz. First of all if you're reading this, thanks for stopping by! But in all seriousness, I'm here to talk about non-candle shenanigans.. well in a way.
My first year of college I was at Lindsey Wilson and was on a full ride scholarship for softball. My intentions were to play four years of collegiate softball because it was my passion. I worked hard. I was disciplined. I simply loved the game and sacrificed so much for it. To sum it up for ya... I pitched a total of 27 innings my entire freshman year. Sat constantly. Warmed up constantly. Always got my hopes up. Was always ready to go, and nothing. Talk about your confidence being shot. It's one of those things I was not quite used to. So, at the end of the year we had closing meetings and I go in figuring they'll tell me to keep working hard and things like that for next year, I mean they truly never gave me a chance or opportunities to prove myself to them. Well, that scenario wasn't the case. They cut me. They said I'd be happier elsewhere, took my $36,000 in scholarship money and left me out to dry in June to find another school and another team.
I. Was. Devastated. I was scared. I was heartbroken. I was totally confused on WHY this was happening. I drove home that day and that whole summer I was not me. I was lost, unhappy, unmotivated and bothered. I was in a bad place in my life... with everything.
I contacted a few coaches and I ended up going to Indiana University Southeast to play softball. I would end up living at home, playing and going to school and I was content with my decision. I think I was still down, which is why I wasn't as excited in the beginning simply because I didn't believe in myself and allowed others to tear me down. It all ended up working out, though. I worked 40 hours a week that summer (which totally was NOT my thing, and something I have never done) and felt empty. I didn't have much to look forward to, I didn't like where I was within myself and how I thought of myself. You get the point.
One day at work ( I was a receptionist ), I was scrolling through Pinterest pinning DIY's I'd never end up doing and came across this candle-making pin that I have came across before. I read it again and thought hmm... this would be a fun project because I LOVED candles ( still do, of course ) and even got the idea of selling them to friends and family if I got a hang of it. I went to Hobby Lobby that evening and got the supplies and to experimenting I went. Let me tell ya... harder than it seems. My candles sucked. They actually kind of sucked for a long time. Issues with the wick falling, the wax not burning evenly, the wick tab moving when melted... SO MANY THINGS WENT WRONG! A lot of money and time was invested and there were times I just thought hmm, I'm spending too much money and definitely not making it all back. But the thing was I loved doing it. Everyday after work I would stay up all night and make candles and research and read on how to better my craft and I spent all my time browsing the internet for bulk materials and trying to figure out if it was even worth it. Would people even buy my product? That's a risk I just took. I totally just went with it because I believed I could go somewhere with this. Yes, my candles weren't the greatest at first but I want to thank all the people who supported me when they were new and lower quality.
This was my escape. It was my therapy. It kept my mind off of other things. It inspired me. It created dreams for me. It simply filled my life with happiness again. I know... that's dramatic, but it isn't anything less than the truth. Just something about it brought me so much joy. Candles always made me happy and there I was making them for others so multiply happiness by x1000.
I kept with it, did local craft shows, created a Facebook, told all my friends and family and never gave up even when at times the business side got a bit stressful and confusing for me. I was taking 17 credit hours and playing softball while starting my own business. Sleep? What is that?... But I wouldn't have changed any of those circumstances. I embrace times like that because that is when character is built. That is when heart shows. That is when you are broken down physically and mentally but you build up strength to keep on grinding.
Getting cut from my softball team and getting my scholarship taken away isn't what made me so unhappy. It's the feelings you have to deal with everyday from that moment on that don't just get better with time... they actually end up creeping up on you when you tell yourself you're ok. There were other things I was dealing with in my life at this moment too. Just a bunch of stress, uncertainty, and yada yada... no more pity party.
Looking back on my life to how it was I would have never imagined this is how it was going to pan out (for now). In the mean time, I had a successful year with softball at IUS, my business has blown my mind... never thought I'd have a website or people ordering from me. I got awesome grades. I just have became so much happier in the last few months. Not saying I don't ever get down because HELLO we are all human. No one's life is perfect. We all just find our way.
Recently I decided to not play softball anymore and changed my major to Business- Marketing (makes sense)...and have just went with what I'm feeling and going with it and embracing it! I learned to trust in myself and take chances. Life is short and you CAN NOT let fear hold you back. I am beyond blessed and grateful for last summer. I am so thankful I got cut and hated life (lol, that's a joke... but no seriously). Without those hardships and battles, I couldn't be where I am today. The person. Not my business or anything like that, even though that's helped, but me. Emily. I have changed and grown and conquered the odds against me. I have also failed and been discouraged. It's part of it.
Heck, I'm still confused in life. I'm always learning every single day. But the most important thing I've learned about MYSELF is I am strong. I am capable and I am a badass. You have to be confident. You have to believe. You have to DREAM! Don't let anyone ever tell you, you can't do something. Everyones story is different. That's the beautiful thing about it all. We get to experience life like nobody else but at the end of the day can we are able to share it with our loved ones and others to inspire, learn, share heartaches, times of joy, times of struggle and especially times of love.
If you've made it this far, don't give up and whatever struggle you are facing in your life right now; do something about it... because you can. Life takes twists and turns and believe you will end up right where you belong. You are more capable than you know. It may take time but embrace it. There is beauty in the struggle.